Diary of a Girl Who Is Writing to a Ghost by Ixel Macias

Dear Diary,

How do I tell him I love him? 

How do I tell him I should have said yes to his marriage proposal?

How do I tell him I made a mistake? I didn’t mean to hurt him.

 

Dear Diary,

How do I tell him it’s not too late?

How do I tell him it wasn’t meant to be this way?

How do I tell him to come home?

 

Dear Diary,

How do I not cry myself to sleep?

How do I stop myself from calling him?

How do I tell his friends not to update me on him?

 

Dear Diary,

How do I tell my parents I am okay?

How do I tell my friends I am okay?

How do I tell my professors I am okay?

 

Dear Diary,

How do I ask for help?

How do I request an appointment with a counselor?

How do I not sound crazy?

 

Dear Diary,

How do I smile again?

How do I dance the night away?

How do I have fun again?

Dear Diary,

How do I not apologize for my growth?

How do I tell him I’m okay now?

How do I tell him I am no longer sad?

 

Dear Diary,

How do I ignore his call?

How do I tell him no?

How do I tell him I am glad things happened the way they did?

 

Dear Diary,

How do I…

Wait. 

 

Dear Diary,

I am no longer upset. I am no longer unhappy. I am okay, I have moved on. Today I told him this was completely over. Today I told him I was no longer waiting for him. Today I chose me. Today, I said goodbye to him.