{"id":24798,"date":"2019-09-16T12:07:54","date_gmt":"2019-09-16T18:07:54","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/?p=24798"},"modified":"2020-04-16T12:49:46","modified_gmt":"2020-04-16T18:49:46","slug":"drugs-audry-l-terrazas-senior","status":"archive","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/drugs-audry-l-terrazas-senior\/","title":{"rendered":"Archived: Drugs \u2014 Audry L. Terrazas (Senior)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I\u2019ve been on these meds since I have been 10.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">They keep adding new drugs,\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">And I feel like I\u2019m at war with my own mind.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">It\u2019s an arms race and I\u2019m not winning.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The bullets of downers and the bombs of uppers.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Deadly ammunition for a sick brain.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">New pills for new unwanted emotions, But are they truly unwanted?\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">The overwhelming loneliness and emptiness, the flashbacks, and the mountains of nervousness energy.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">I may want to die but at least I understand that perfection isn\u2019t reality.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">Not everyone who is drowning isn\u2019t trying to swim. I\u2019m just trying to swim but what if I want to drown.\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span style=\"font-weight: 400;\">But here I am 8 years later taking them and not knowing who I truly am. <\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I\u2019ve been on these meds since I have been 10.\u00a0 They keep adding new drugs,\u00a0 And I feel like I\u2019m at war with my own mind.\u00a0 It\u2019s an arms race and I\u2019m not winning.\u00a0 The bullets of downers and the bombs of uppers.\u00a0 Deadly ammunition for a sick brain.\u00a0 New pills for new unwanted emotions,&#8230; <\/p>\n<div class=\"link-more\"><a href=\"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/drugs-audry-l-terrazas-senior\/\">Read More<\/a><\/div>\n","protected":false},"author":13,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[33],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-24798","post","type-post","status-archive","format-standard","hentry","category-archive"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24798","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/13"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=24798"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24798\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24800,"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24798\/revisions\/24800"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=24798"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=24798"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/aimsreview.aims.edu\/incite\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=24798"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}